Divine Consciosness, I Am

The Divine Consciousness I Am is forever expressing its true nature of abundance. This is its responsibility, not mine. My only responsibility is to be aware of this truth. Therefore, I am totally confident in letting go and letting God appear as the abundant all-sufficiency in my life and affairs. The Abundance Book.

What does it mean to be aware? For awhile now, I have thought that awareness is looking beyond what is present. My Christian ancestors often use the phrase, “The devil is a liar.”

I was sitting thinking about my thoughts and realized how many lies I tell myself a day. Lies of scarcity, lies of isolation and lies that I am not sure how it will end, when I look back and realize that it has always ended well-one way or another, it ended well, even if it was simply taking the gifts, lessons and growth of that which ended as a disaster. All ends well.

As I work to translate traditionally dogmatic and ancestral inheritance or to find their energetic roots, I understood what the phrase meant –there is no truth in it. There is no truth in not enough housing, not enough money, not enough friends, not enough success or progress…not enough, no matter what it looks like and no matter what I think about it.

I saw a bumper sticker that read, “Don’t believe everything you think.” After awhile, you learn that you cannot believe everything that people think about you, even well intentioned opinions from well intentioned people must be measured against what I know is true.

Twice now, I have had the experience of well-intentioned people totally invalidate deep inner knowing. In the moment I realized that invalidation can happen when I allow it and then, I look at where does that need for external validation come from? When I look outside myself for it, what I can be sure of- is that it is a gamble.

Yet when the messages are internalized-internal-coming from your own mind, how do you discern, what is you and what is a lie that you have chosen to believe?

I have a very simple measuring stick. Does that thought make me love myself more? If the thought makes me love myself more than I know it is from me, because my essence is love. If my thought leads me down-as my advisor says-the ‘Kisha’ road, then I know it is a 1,000 years of ghosts coming to visit me, speaking through me about things that have long since been over. Apparitions that were projected onto a form called the devil and that I have come to understand as thought forms that are lies, because there is no life in them.

What is awareness? Living life in present time. Where the birds play right next to the mailbox full of bills. Where hot water and ginger soothe the throat that is also sick with cold. Where the answers snuggle right next to the problem. Where the devil is a liar is released from dogma in order for me to know the truth of Life-God/Goddess-lives in me.